Baby Therapist

I got a call on Monday offering me a position at Axis Community Health as a trainee therapist for my practicum. It was hard to hold on to that. I thought several times during the day that maybe I was remembering the phone conversation wrong. (I prefer to have things in writing - makes it easier to see that they are real.) This was my first choice. It is less than a mile walk from my regular job's office. I will be working there two days a week. One of them will actually be at a school site, the other at the office. It's so amazing to think I will actually be seeing clients in September. A little scary too.

This whole experience has been one of faith. I studies my options and prayed and decided on what I would do and prayed again. I felt good about the site and it was the only one I applied to at first. I didn't have any worries and just accepted that I would be placed there. Then there were setbacks and uncertainties from the world at large. The site seemed unsure if they would have any openings at all and I began to panic. Had I really gotten a confirmation from God? What should I believe? I felt a pull between relying on God and fearing man. I wasn't sure what wisdom was - the world would tell me that I was stupid to apply just to one place and that I was naive. I even thought maybe I was arrogant or foolish. I broke down and half-heartedly sent out letters to two other locations (which I never heard back from).

Finally, I had my first interview. It went well. I brought smiles the the interviewer's faces and made them laugh. There were several points of connection - I knew two people who had worked there before and I am going to a conference that one of their supervisors is also excited about attending. Then I had to wait for a second interview. But I felt much better and calmer. Again I questioned whether it was faith, arrogance, or foolishness. My second interview was shorter. I was asked two questions and given an vignette to respond to. I felt like I did ok with that and sat down to wait. Then this week I got my placement.

I am so grateful to God for looking out for me and providing for my needs. I am glad of this experience to practice faith and learn about trusting the Lord. I hope I do better next time around in holding on in faith without letting the outside world engender doubt in my heart.